Does anyone else really dislike using "I, Me, My" more than a handful of times? Not entirely sure if this post will make it to be published, my threshold for talkin about myself is fairly low.
Damn. Already irritating.
I knew he was leaving in ten months, and despite the fact that I really did love him... I still didn't care enough to have an argument or really what he was upto on his nights out with people he thought were fit. Apparently that can really do a number on a person, especially after you break up.
4 - Being constantly drunk
I can't even remember. That said, I do know that when inebriated I have an absolute inability to take anything seriously, my only motivation is to amuse myself, and there is no sexytime. On a list of things that men hate, they score pretty high I guess.
3 - Switching off my verbal filter
He wanted to know what I was thinking! Except once that floodgate opens its really hard for me to close it. For the next month and a half, everything that popped into my cranium came out the cakehole. If I had to describe what happened to his self esteem in terms of environmental disasters; it was not so much a tsunami or an earthquake, but a gradual and massive landslide caused by successive rainy seasons causing erosion at the bedrock level. Its okay though. I am like 90% certain that he hasn't killed himself, but I am not really sure because hes blocked and pre-blocked me on every social medium.
Is pre-blocking a real thing?
2 - Listening to his stupid friend
Instead of asking him about what was going on, I just allowed the bile to fill me up and destroyed my shot at being mrs-stupidly-rich-american. There really was no excuse for it.
1 - Telling him I loved someone else
I tried everything that week to get him to dump me, and none of it worked. None of what I said was true, of course, and as it turns out he more than got his own back by going through my phone and friends and deleting every singleton without a vagina. The reason (not that I'm condoning this kind of behavior at all) was because I had a habit of freaking out when guys got too close, and he got as close as anyone ever had/will get. In hindsight, that really should have been when we broke up.
URGH.
That was fairly therapeutic actually. Whats the worst thing you've done to people you've dated?
I've only had two boyfriends, so I can't really think of much I've done to them. The first I dated for only a few months. My current boyfriend and I are going on 3 1/2 years.
ReplyDeleteI was actually proud of myself at one point when I could have done something. His ex-girlfriend got onto his Myspace when we first started dating and pretended to be him, telling me all this horrible stuff about him. Instead of believing it, I called him and asked if he was on Myspace at that time. He wasn't, and I told him I got some weird messages from his account. We found out she got someone to hack into a bunch of his stuff online.
So I didn't listen to the stupid stuff. I don't even care if it was true, since none of it had anything to do with me anyway. And that's why I was proud of myself. :D